No, I Haven't Disappeared

I'm still here, still struggling.  I really wish WW had a doable meeting in my area.

I haven't been doing well eating wise and I'm trying to get that under control.  Way too many snacks on the counter at work; and not enough willpower.

Though I've always celebrated the Shapa scale.....I'm beginning to see it as a downer (unless you're doing good, of course).  It doesn't seem to matter whether you're seeing a number on the scale or a color.  If the color/number isn't what you want it to be....it's a downer.  And that's where I'm at right now.

I've only read one chapter of the Girl Wash Your Face book and then didn't pick it back up until last night, where Chapter 2 was about committing to yourself.  It was a needed read.  She stated that, for example, if you commit to doing a diet...your brain remembers how you've committed in the past to the same thing and pretty much talks you into doing the same.  She kind of explained as having a friend who always breaks promises, so at some point, you stopped depending on them to do what they said they were going to do.  Your brain will do the same to you; so if you make a commitment - you need to keep pushing through towards that commitment and not let anything stand in the way.  Easier said then done but it really made a lot of sense.  It reminded me of this: